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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

13.06.2025 00:47

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

What are some sad truths about life?

I have no regrets .

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

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Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

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She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

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My family never makes their pension either.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

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I of course replied” arh beautiful!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

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You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

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But, we were locked up after school.

I will be 64.

Im still living with it.

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Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I was very sick at this time too.

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He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I waited trembling.

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I was seconnd youngest,

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

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But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

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The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

So whats the point in blame.

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She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

But it wasn’t much.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Ive learnt so much.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I was scared of men, in general

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

(And it was in our own minds.)

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

I never cut or harmed myself..

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

We were not on the streets..

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Would this be the day?

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

What did i know ?

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

But ive been too sick for many years..

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

We all went to grammer schools

I said to her

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I write beautiful poetry .

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I had hoped to write a book about this .

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

I couldn’t, believe it.

I could never make a relationship work though!

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I know ,a lot about trauma.

And i lived it daily.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Why did i forgive my father ?

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

This is soul school!.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I was 9 years of age.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

I think the readers, may guess!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

The only rule us 5 kids had .

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

He knew the spot.

She found it foreign!.

She was in good health!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Comes on , in middle age.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

When she asked me how she looked .

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

So, i spoilt her more .

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I don,t even have a pension.

She loved him until the end.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

He resisted the act ,that day.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Was to survive, this bastard.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

She wouldn,t have been !

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

She married twice! .

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Who then, do I blame.?

As i do to all so called friends.?

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Especially a lifetime of it.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

My life is so biszare .

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

One cannot live in the past .

All the time i was locked up.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

It was going to be , some day.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Put me off passion for life!!